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compelledtoprotect ([personal profile] compelledtoprotect) wrote2019-05-05 04:31 am

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[personal profile] failed_antichrist 2019-10-03 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
[There's a little voice in his mind that tells him this is a horrible idea, but his throat burns, his mouth twitches, and he gives in and admits.]

Even Lucifer seemed like he's having a rough time. At least he did when I talk to him.

[Uncomfortable after that, Setsuna switches the subject back to sleeping.] I used to be able to sleep alone, but here, I think it might be best. I can probably stay here for a bit. Why not? [For Setsuna, after spending the night with Kira multiple times, and sleeping in his best friend's bed, the offer feels purely platonic. And now this his mind switching gears he couldn't stop himself, it was either say it or choke on his pain. ]

I...I used to stay with my best friend all the time. [He manages a sort of sad smile to that. He hasn't really brought up Kira, or Katou, since arriving, trying to avoid the pain that comes with mentioning them. It's contest for which pain is worse - the pain of Kira's memories, or the pain that builds from silence.]

[Setsuna listens, then shakes his head.]
No, don't know them. But I could still help look. [He notices Steve struggling so he tries to think of either something to say, or ask.]

You got anyone else help you looking?
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[personal profile] failed_antichrist 2019-10-12 05:01 am (UTC)(link)
[Even if Steve apologized, Setsuna was only left confused by the apology, and his eyebrows furrowed together as Setsuna looked up with large eyes. He was used to people getting upset with him, and it just being his fault.]

You don't need to be sorry. Especially.... [Setsuna clamped his mouth shut, barely in time. It didn't matter, the pain his silence resulted in was enough to make his face go red. Before he knew it, Setsuna let his mouth run.] Especially since we did more than just talk. We met up and talked in person. And I talked to him because I, I, well, I, wanted to.

[Considering what he just blurted out, and Steve's invitation, Setsuna bit his bottom lip and nodded his head.] If you really don't mind, then, yeah, I'll stick around here. I want to.

[Thanks to Kira, Setsuna was accustomed to empty threats, and he thought of Steve as nothing but a big teddy-bear. However, Kira used to at least give definite threats, an open-ended one left Setsuna's mind unconsciously filling in the blanks.]

But if you don't ask people, how can we find out what happened?
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[personal profile] failed_antichrist 2019-10-19 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
[Steve was fairly close to both truths; Setsuna's nature made it difficult for him to see most people in a negative light for long, and he was naturally drawn to Lucifer, and other celestial beings. At Steve's concern, Setsuna looked increasingly uncomfortable. He swallowed, but that didn't help.]

I don't think he's a madman. He cuddled with me. And I'm not so sure he likes being the bad guy, here. [He looked away, ashamed as he admitted all of this, especially with Steve's sincere and sweet offers. He bit his bottom lip and rubbed one foot with the other.]

Thank you. I don't want to take advantage of your kindness, though. [He listened to Steve, and tried to stay quiet, especially since what he was about to say was in relation to someone else.]

If...if it was like before. When I died, I would just reincarnate. Then you could find me again. Like my best friend did. He followed me from life to life. [At that, Setsuna's hands tightened into fists and he shook his head, trying to hide his face away. Until Steve clarified his request.]

But what about you? What if something happens to you if you go around asking? [The question was asked with a slight frown.]
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[personal profile] failed_antichrist 2019-10-21 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
[Setsuna frowned at Steve saying Lucifer was dangerous. What if he was putting Steve in danger by talking with that guy? But so far, Lucifer hadn't singled out any one person, and nothing seemed personal here, at all. But it's clear he's still uncomfortable, and all it takes is for Steve to dislike it. But that's for later.]

No, I wouldn't remember, at first. [Setsuna was honest about it, eyes wide as he looked up at Steve.] I didn't remember things at first. And I don't think I'm going to reincarnate anymore, anyway. Next time I'll just wake up Alexiel, and cease to exist. [It was a sad admission, but Setsuna had tried to not think about it. His whole plan was to just not die again until he lived a long life with Sara. But here? In Hell? The outlook wasn't very good. He listened to Steve's rundown, which might have been bragging from anyone else, but Setsuna's mouth was open in a small 'o' of awe. And yet....]

That's cool and all, but you really underestimate me, you know. [Setsuna gave Steve a snarky grin after.]
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[personal profile] invicto 2019-10-22 01:28 am (UTC)(link)
There was a loud knock on the door. Actually, not loud so much as rough, followed by a muted stumble as though a heavy weight had landed on the door.

After his fight with Jim, James had taken a long, ill-considered detour by the club, and had more drinks than he ought to, and had mixed them with more drugs than he should. He was buzzed out and so out of it, it was a wonder none of the demons had decided to take advantage of his state in some way.

It was a wonder that he'd managed to stumble his way to Steve's doorstep, too. Granted, he was barely managing to stay upright, and chances were he's just fall into Steve's room the moment that door was open.
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[personal profile] invicto 2019-10-23 12:26 pm (UTC)(link)
He felt a warm, solid body catch him, and he couldn't help a sigh of relief. It was the most comforting thing he could feel since... honestly, he didn't even want to think about that. He was just relieved that he'd found the right door, and the right person.

He mumbled incoherently all the way to Steve's bed, sighing in relief when he felt the softness of the covers beneath him, too out of it to even care about pulling them over himself instead. He had so much alcohol in him, it wasn't like he felt the cold anyway.

"Just want to stay," he mumbled, reaching for Steve's hand, clinging to his arm as tightly as he could manage. He was on the verge of tears, that much was likely obvious, too on edge to even realize that he couldn't filter his emotions properly like he normally would. "Please... let me. Don't... w-want to be alone..."
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[personal profile] invicto 2019-10-25 02:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Steve's closeness both felt like too much and not nearly enough. James just trembled against the hold, then all but melted into it, letting out a shivered whimper as he closed his eyes and hid his face against the nook of Steve's shoulder.

He might wake up with a hell of a headache later, or even have to stumble to the bathroom to throw up halfway through the night. But for now, he couldn't even think to move away. He felt like he was broken up into pieces and Steve was the only thing that was keeping him whole. If he untangled from the tight hold of his arms, he had a feeling he'd just fall apart.

"Good," he trembled, crying in absolute silence. He didn't want Steve asking why he was like this, what happened to him, but he also couldn't hold back the emotions taking the best of him. "Just... want to sleep forever."
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Just a reminder - THIS is the truth potion thread

[personal profile] failed_antichrist 2019-10-26 08:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[Even if it was mildly uncomfortable for a second, Setsuna nuzzled against Steve's shoulder, ignoring the rest of the world while in his arms. Just for a little bit longer.]

[When he mentioned not wanting Alexiel, Setsuna's eyes trailed down, unable to look anymore at Steve's, not when he could read so much emotion and turmoil in them as he told Steve the cold-hard truth.]
That's the thing. Next time I die, that's exactly who I become. I can't avoid it. Not anymore.

Another? [The kid's spirit dampens and his eyes stay down. Part of him doesn't want to ask, knowing Steve might not be able to stop himself from answering. But for the same reason, Setsuna had trouble avoiding the question.] Who did you lose, Steve?

[Finally, his eyes move, and Setsuna looks Steve up and down, mouth wide - more because he wasn't expecting that from Steve, of all people.]

And you're a really big jerk! [This is said with an attempt at a playful shove to Steve's shoulder.]
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[personal profile] odaystar 2019-10-27 12:17 am (UTC)(link)
[One late evening, some guests will return to their beds to find a note left for them upon their pillow or desk. It will read:]

FROM THE DESK OF
Lucifer
to Steve Rogers

Steve,

It is with a heavy heart that I must inform you that an unnamed penitent has chosen to add the sin of extortion to your list. This has unfortunately extended your contract.

Best regards,

Lucifer
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[personal profile] invicto 2019-10-27 02:32 pm (UTC)(link)
James didn't say it out loud, but sleeping forever sounded like a great idea right now. Granted, the drugs and the alcohol weren't making him feel that great about existing overall, but he had a feeling that everything would hurt even worse when he was sober.

His breaths trembled as he settled, not really processing the tease in Steve's words. He clung tightly to the other man, or as tightly as he could manage, and let himself melt into the embrace. He wasn't going to sleep so much as sleep into a drug-fueled dream, he was sure, but it was better than being awake and aware, at least.

But Steve felt warm, and solid. He was right there, holding him. He wouldn't leave during the night, leave James to wake up to an empty bed. That was the only thing that could make him forget about the whole mess with Jim, even if only momentarily, and he allowed it to sweep his mind and lull him into sleep.
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[personal profile] invicto 2019-10-29 03:04 pm (UTC)(link)
It wasn't a particularly pleasant night. He tossed and turned in his sleep, woke up in the middle of the night in a sweat, went to the bathroom to throw up at some point, and struggled to fall asleep afterwards too. Steve being there made it marginally better, though. At least he was warm and comfortable, and he had someone caring for him, tending to his every need.

He hadn't gotten the sleep he'd needed by the time morning came, but despite having a huge headache and a pain in his stomach from a lack of food and water, he felt at least a little more human.

"Mm," he mumbled, eyes blinking blearily, immediately closing again as he curled up against Steve's warmth, fingers fisting his shirt. Eventually he looked over Steve's shoulder, trying to see whether there was a glass or bottle on the nightstand. His voice was quiet and hoarse when he spoke. "Water..."
Edited 2019-10-29 15:05 (UTC)
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[personal profile] invicto 2019-11-07 03:35 pm (UTC)(link)
James let out a soft sound of protest, but he did nod, shifting slowly into a more sitting position. His head was spinning and just moving made him feel a little sick, but with his stomach empty there wasn't anything left to come back up.

He accepted the glass of water, taking a few small sips, then a larger gulp. He knew better than to chug it down. Grabbing the plate next, he held it close to avoid any crumbs falling onto the bed, then chewed on a couple crackers before his stomach decided that was enough for now.

"Think I need to sleep it off a little more," he mumbled, throat raw and hoarse. Tired. "Or just lie in bed. You... got anywhere else to be?"

Because James would like to keep him around if he could get away with that.
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[personal profile] invicto 2019-11-09 04:13 pm (UTC)(link)
James knew just how much Steve was loving this, and he couldn't really bring himself to deny him, especially when James enjoyed the attention just as much. He loved being pampered and doted on, adored as though he was the most important, precious thing. Right now it was the greatest comfort Steve could give him, simply giving up anything else he might have or want to do just so he could be here with him.

"Good," he murmured, managing a faint smile. He buried his face in Steve's shoulder, pressing close to him, warm body molding itself to Steve's. He was so glad to be held close, even if it meant he couldn't move much. It wasn't like he wanted to, anyway.

"You sleep anything at all?"
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[personal profile] failed_antichrist 2019-11-10 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I.... I don't know about that. With Kira and Lucifer- [He stops short, only for his throat to burn, again.] When I die, that's it.

[His throat continued to burn, but that isn't why his eyesight blurred over and tears started to fall. Just hearing Steve talk about Bucky, he put his hand to his heart and tried to refrain, but his tears turned to sobs and he had to hug Steve, tightly.]

[When he was a bit calmer he managed to whisper.]
Me too. I lost my best friend, too. [He wiped his cheeks and spoke with a stronger voice.] Sakuya Kira. Kira...he.... He came back as Lucifer. Same face, same voice. [He can't quite look at Steve, but wants to share his pain in any way he can, even if it's just with hugs and stories.] But my best friend is gone. Because of that, I know when I die...it's not gonna be the same.

[The tickling took him completely off guard. He wasn't terribly ticklish, but it was enough he started to dissolve into laughter. In between, he had tried to shout out words while he squirmed with the attempt to get out of Steve's arms.]

STT-OOP! No one! Ever tri-! N-n-never! [He should have given up, but he kept trying to blurt the same useless words out.]

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