I just . . . I just want everyone to be happy dammit! I want you all to be safe and happy and I don't know what the hell to do to make that happen here! And I know Setsuna's not a baby! I just . . . He's been through so much Billy. I know you know what I mean. How can I not want to protect him?
[Steve wasn't much better. He wanted to have his hands on Billy, to be able to offer at least physical comfort. For them both. Not that it would help . . .]
You can't make people happy, Steve. They've got to do that for themselves... trust me, I know that better than anyone. And I know he has. But you can't protect him entirely down here. None of us can be protected entirely.
[And he wishes that wasn't the case, but he doesn't know how to change it either. He lets out a short, shaky sigh.]
It's okay. If you really want to help me, why don't you come over? We haven't fucked in a while and I want to not think for a while.
I know but . . . I know. I know all of it Billy. But it doesn't stop how much I wanna protect everyone. It's not logical, you know that.
[There was so much hope in his eyes when he looked at the camera it was probably painful. Why would it mean so much? Steve just didn't know, but it did and would. He'd been essentially celibate since James left, but he missed it. Missed being close, holding someone, feeling loved.]
I know, Steve. I know. But I don't know what to do either... not beyond what I am doing.
[And it's not enough apparently. Or it's not right. Or-- whatever. He sighs, eyes drifting downward.]
You don't have to say please when I'm offering. I'll leave the door unlocked. Don't be soft about it... I'm not that breakable, and I want bruises tomorrow.
[Rough too? It wouldn't be the first time. The things they'd done on the island made the hotel seem tame. He could be rough. Steve rather enjoyed rough when he could get it, but it wasn't often someone just came out and asked for it.]
I can give you bruises baby, if you want 'em. We can do whatever you want Billy. Anything. You're sure it's ok? Really sure?
[Because he didn't want to make any problems for anyone. It just seemed like a good idea to ask again.]
[Steve didn't keep Billy waiting. He made it to the man's suite in record time and slipped in the door, glancing around. He was trying very very hard not to listen too closely, although he wasn't quite sure why.]
[Billy can't really stop himself from pacing back and forth a bit. His mind is going a little too fast to settle down, and honestly-- he's ready for a distraction.
[He tightened his hand slowly on the man's arm until he knew it would cross the line into pain, and leave a faint bruise. Steve's eyes never left Billy's face, his voice rough and deep when he spoke.]
I need to know when it gets to be too much. Swear you'll stop me Billy. Swear it and I'll hurt you.
Might forget and look at you funny, but sure. Stop works too. I'll at least pause.
[Steve didn't let Billy pull away. In fact, he tightened his fingers a little more. He understood the point of safewords, but he wasn't very experienced with them. Mostly he wasn't violent with people, and when someone was with him, he trusted that person to stop before he was dead. That was sort of how far he was willing to go. But words like "stop" and "no" would always make him pause and check in anyway.
He pulled Billy's arm towards him, making the man step closer.]
Do I leave marks Billy? Do I break anything? Make you bleed?
[Steve moved fast, too fast for a normal man, and in a heartbeat he had Billy pinned to the nearest wall, and hand around the man's throat tight enough to making breathing just tiniest bit difficult. His other hand slid down Billy's chest, and lower as he leaned in, whispering in the man's ear.]
You know, I've had a lot of experience since the island. I think you'll be quite pleased.
[His breath catches in his throat as he hits the wall, his heart beat picking up. He isn't afraid though, excitement is clear in his eyes. He shifts a little bit, just to feel the pressure at his throat as Steve's hand moves down his body.]
Yeah? What do you like best Billy boy? What's your favorite naughty thing?
[When Billy leaned into his hands, Steve obliged him. He tightened the fingers on the man's throat just a touch, and his other hand worked under Billy's shirt, fingers finding bare skin. His nails scraped against the man's belly lightly, teasing.]
[He swallows, trying not to squirm as fingernails rake over his skin. It's hard to focus on talking when he's getting so much of what he wants already.]
Right now? I want you to do whatever you want, however you want it. I want you to fuck me until I can't think straight.
[Steve leaned in, nuzzling the man's temple as he spoke, smirking against warm skin. Billy's body under his hands was so hot, so eager. He tightened his hand just a tiny bit more on the man's throat as his fingers dug into firm muscle. Just to tease.]
Do you remember the island Billy? Being together there? I know I do. Shall I fill you up now like I did then? Until you can't possible hold any more?
You could always twist us a little. You can do that right? Make us rut again?
[It was an interesting idea that came to him along with the other memories. When they'd been forced to act like animals. It would be useful if Billy could induce that again. Being so connected to his baser self would make violence all the easier. Plus it would be fun. Steve remembered enjoying most of that time on the island, even if he'd been out of control more than once.
He dragged his mouth along the man's cheek toward his mouth, leaving a damp trail.]
[And it sounds like Steve does, for better or worse. He gives a grin before he turns to try to catch Steve in a proper kiss. He brings up a hand to rest it at the side of Steve's face, fingertips brushing over his skin fondly.
There's the glow to his eyes soon enough, the tingle of magic at his fingertips as he mutters a spell. Baseinstinctsbaseinstincts -- it should have enough power behind it to put them both in that state again for the night at least.]
I trust you with my life period. And as long as you think it'd be fun too, I'm more than happy to try.
[Steve kissed the man, hard and hungry. If Billy needed it rough, he'd deliver. And knowing the man could handle him even when he was all but feral took that usual worry away. They'd done it before, and both had walked away. Eventually. What Steve was proposing was going to leave them both beyond spent and exhausted.
He shivered as Billy mumbled those words and he felt the magic touch him. Steve groaned softly as the heat started to kindle in his belly, that familiar need reborn. His hands tightened on Billy as he buried his nose in the man's neck, pulling in Billy's scent.]
[There's a low, eager moan that gets muffled into that kiss. He responds eagerly, desperate for more, for anything, especially when the spell starts to do its job. There's a needy shiver that goes through him as he turns his head, trying to coax Steve up for another kiss.]
Come here...
[He wants contact, he wants to be claimed-- it's so much easier to just get lost in the sensations if he's honest.]
[Surrendering to the feeling was just what Steve wanted to do. Steve could already feel the instincts rising in him, the desire to get Billy naked and hard. He wanted to rub all over the man, coat him in his scent. Oh god, the bliss of giving up that part of him that always held back!
Steve allowed his head to be pulled back up for a kiss, a purr rumbling in his throat as his tongue touched Billy's. His hands slid up the man's back under his shirt, pulling that warm body closer. He wasn't going to stay so gentle much longer.]
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Date: 2020-09-21 10:40 pm (UTC)[Steve wasn't much better. He wanted to have his hands on Billy, to be able to offer at least physical comfort. For them both. Not that it would help . . .]
Billy. I'm so sorry . . .
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Date: 2020-09-21 10:59 pm (UTC)[And he wishes that wasn't the case, but he doesn't know how to change it either. He lets out a short, shaky sigh.]
It's okay. If you really want to help me, why don't you come over? We haven't fucked in a while and I want to not think for a while.
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Date: 2020-09-21 11:15 pm (UTC)[There was so much hope in his eyes when he looked at the camera it was probably painful. Why would it mean so much? Steve just didn't know, but it did and would. He'd been essentially celibate since James left, but he missed it. Missed being close, holding someone, feeling loved.]
Can I Billy? Please?
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Date: 2020-09-21 11:27 pm (UTC)[And it's not enough apparently. Or it's not right. Or-- whatever. He sighs, eyes drifting downward.]
You don't have to say please when I'm offering. I'll leave the door unlocked. Don't be soft about it... I'm not that breakable, and I want bruises tomorrow.
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Date: 2020-09-30 03:20 am (UTC)[Rough too? It wouldn't be the first time. The things they'd done on the island made the hotel seem tame. He could be rough. Steve rather enjoyed rough when he could get it, but it wasn't often someone just came out and asked for it.]
I can give you bruises baby, if you want 'em. We can do whatever you want Billy. Anything. You're sure it's ok? Really sure?
[Because he didn't want to make any problems for anyone. It just seemed like a good idea to ask again.]
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Date: 2020-10-01 07:53 am (UTC)[He wanted this right now. He didn't want anything careful or easy.]
I'll be waiting, Steve.
on the way!
Date: 2020-10-03 09:48 am (UTC)[Steve didn't keep Billy waiting. He made it to the man's suite in record time and slipped in the door, glancing around. He was trying very very hard not to listen too closely, although he wasn't quite sure why.]
Billy? You in here?
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Date: 2020-10-13 08:13 am (UTC)[Billy can't really stop himself from pacing back and forth a bit. His mind is going a little too fast to settle down, and honestly-- he's ready for a distraction.
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Date: 2020-10-17 09:30 am (UTC)Steve stepped into the room and caught Billy's arm as he passed in pacing, his grip gentle.]
Billy. Talk to me baby. What do you need?
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Date: 2020-10-27 09:35 pm (UTC)[He tilts his head back to meet Steve's eyes.]
Don't be careful, Steve.
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Date: 2020-11-01 06:42 am (UTC)I need to know when it gets to be too much. Swear you'll stop me Billy. Swear it and I'll hurt you.
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Date: 2020-11-11 08:10 pm (UTC)Alright, if I say-- Avengers or something, you'll know I mean it really does hurt. Okay?
[That isn't something he'd yell out in bed after all.]
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Date: 2020-11-15 08:17 am (UTC)[Steve didn't let Billy pull away. In fact, he tightened his fingers a little more. He understood the point of safewords, but he wasn't very experienced with them. Mostly he wasn't violent with people, and when someone was with him, he trusted that person to stop before he was dead. That was sort of how far he was willing to go. But words like "stop" and "no" would always make him pause and check in anyway.
He pulled Billy's arm towards him, making the man step closer.]
Do I leave marks Billy? Do I break anything? Make you bleed?
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Date: 2020-11-17 08:18 am (UTC)[He'll just want to make sure his magic is working enough to heal it, that's all... but as much as he wants pain right now? He might not oppose it.
For now, he lets himself get pulled in and flashes a grin, excitement bleeding into his expression.]
I trust you.
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Date: 2020-11-22 10:02 am (UTC)[Steve moved fast, too fast for a normal man, and in a heartbeat he had Billy pinned to the nearest wall, and hand around the man's throat tight enough to making breathing just tiniest bit difficult. His other hand slid down Billy's chest, and lower as he leaned in, whispering in the man's ear.]
You know, I've had a lot of experience since the island. I think you'll be quite pleased.
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Date: 2020-11-29 07:36 am (UTC)Yeah? So have I...
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Date: 2020-12-06 04:24 am (UTC)[When Billy leaned into his hands, Steve obliged him. He tightened the fingers on the man's throat just a touch, and his other hand worked under Billy's shirt, fingers finding bare skin. His nails scraped against the man's belly lightly, teasing.]
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Date: 2020-12-15 07:34 am (UTC)[He swallows, trying not to squirm as fingernails rake over his skin. It's hard to focus on talking when he's getting so much of what he wants already.]
Right now? I want you to do whatever you want, however you want it. I want you to fuck me until I can't think straight.
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Date: 2020-12-24 06:54 am (UTC)Do you remember the island Billy? Being together there? I know I do. Shall I fill you up now like I did then? Until you can't possible hold any more?
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Date: 2020-12-27 09:49 am (UTC)Do it... might take you all night though. [He swallows against that hand tightening at his throat, making it even harder to breathe.]
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Date: 2020-12-29 10:06 am (UTC)[It was an interesting idea that came to him along with the other memories. When they'd been forced to act like animals. It would be useful if Billy could induce that again. Being so connected to his baser self would make violence all the easier. Plus it would be fun. Steve remembered enjoying most of that time on the island, even if he'd been out of control more than once.
He dragged his mouth along the man's cheek toward his mouth, leaving a damp trail.]
Wanna try it?
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Date: 2020-12-29 06:59 pm (UTC)[And it sounds like Steve does, for better or worse. He gives a grin before he turns to try to catch Steve in a proper kiss. He brings up a hand to rest it at the side of Steve's face, fingertips brushing over his skin fondly.
There's the glow to his eyes soon enough, the tingle of magic at his fingertips as he mutters a spell. Baseinstinctsbaseinstincts -- it should have enough power behind it to put them both in that state again for the night at least.]
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Date: 2020-12-30 08:17 am (UTC)[Steve kissed the man, hard and hungry. If Billy needed it rough, he'd deliver. And knowing the man could handle him even when he was all but feral took that usual worry away. They'd done it before, and both had walked away. Eventually. What Steve was proposing was going to leave them both beyond spent and exhausted.
He shivered as Billy mumbled those words and he felt the magic touch him. Steve groaned softly as the heat started to kindle in his belly, that familiar need reborn. His hands tightened on Billy as he buried his nose in the man's neck, pulling in Billy's scent.]
Billy . . .
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Date: 2020-12-30 09:33 am (UTC)Come here...
[He wants contact, he wants to be claimed-- it's so much easier to just get lost in the sensations if he's honest.]
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Date: 2020-12-31 10:45 pm (UTC)Steve allowed his head to be pulled back up for a kiss, a purr rumbling in his throat as his tongue touched Billy's. His hands slid up the man's back under his shirt, pulling that warm body closer. He wasn't going to stay so gentle much longer.]