He sat calmly, wearing a mask of calm is almost second nature to him, his uncomfort is only shown in the way he stares at their hands, too intently.
And the blush that rose on his face. But mostly it is guilt. He likes Steve. The man has been nothing but kind to him since the moment they met and really, that's part of the problem.
He's too nice, nice in a way that Suzaku doesn't deserve and so it's hard to accept anything. It feels like taking advantage.
But did he want the marriage dissolved? Did he want to be married to Steve? He doesn't know. Honestly. If Steve had suggested he didn't want to be stuck with him he would have agreed to dissolve it in a heartbeat but it doesn't seem that Steve does want that.
"I don't know." It's complicated. It's gotten a lot more complicated these last month or so. "I apologise... If you got the impression..."
He looked up, trying for some confidence at least. "I'm not very good. At intimacy."
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Date: 2021-10-30 10:03 am (UTC)And the blush that rose on his face. But mostly it is guilt. He likes Steve. The man has been nothing but kind to him since the moment they met and really, that's part of the problem.
He's too nice, nice in a way that Suzaku doesn't deserve and so it's hard to accept anything. It feels like taking advantage.
But did he want the marriage dissolved? Did he want to be married to Steve? He doesn't know. Honestly. If Steve had suggested he didn't want to be stuck with him he would have agreed to dissolve it in a heartbeat but it doesn't seem that Steve does want that.
"I don't know." It's complicated. It's gotten a lot more complicated these last month or so. "I apologise... If you got the impression..."
He looked up, trying for some confidence at least. "I'm not very good. At intimacy."