He turned his face into Bucky's hands, kissing the man's palms as he fought tears, "I wanna help people too Buck, but not like this. Not where you risk everything. It's not like what we normally do! They don't wanna fight, they wanna take prisoners. It's not a straight forward battle!"
Steve didn't want anyone to suffer, but he couldn't stand the idea of Bucky getting caught and tortured. He'd lose his mind and then everyone would be at risk. Why couldn't the man understand that? "There's other things we can do Buck! So many other ways to help!"
Bucky was, without fail, far more direct. This is exactly the sort of operation that he's weak at, but it didn't matter. He hated to see Steve so upset, so worried, but he couldn't just give up, either.
"This is the only way I can help right now, Steve. Please."
Dissolving into tears sounded really good at the moment, but he didn't. He fisted his hands in the man's shirt, hanging on tight as he buried his face in Bucky's shoulder. It was a long moment before he managed to find his voice.
"I can't stop you. I can plead with you, but I can't stop you." He lifted his head to meet Bucky;s eyes, "Come back to me. Promise. Promise you'll come back."
He almost laughed, a little of the anguish lifting from his eyes, "Yeah, but you don't always remember me. Try not to forget again, ok? And call me Buck. If you need an out, call me. I'll be there in a heartbeat."
Steve didn't try to avoid Bucky's mouth, though for a moment her was stiff. Then he was pulled Bucky close and kissing back hard. When they broke apart he had tears in his eyes, but Steve didn't plan to let them fall.
"Just come back to me. I can't lose you again." He would never agree that Bucky should be the one playing spy, but he also wouldn't try to tie the man to a chair, which he knew wouldn't work. If he didn't have so many problems with everything related to the Order, Steve would be out there doing the same thing. But he couldn't be objective and he knew he'd never be able to pull anything off. He'd never forgive himself if Bucky got hurt though.
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Steve didn't want anyone to suffer, but he couldn't stand the idea of Bucky getting caught and tortured. He'd lose his mind and then everyone would be at risk. Why couldn't the man understand that? "There's other things we can do Buck! So many other ways to help!"
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"This is the only way I can help right now, Steve. Please."
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"I can't stop you. I can plead with you, but I can't stop you." He lifted his head to meet Bucky;s eyes, "Come back to me. Promise. Promise you'll come back."
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Wrap?
"I will." So he said. The chance Bucky would put Steve into the same danger he was in, not very likely.
He leaned in to take a kiss, if Steve would allow it.
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"Just come back to me. I can't lose you again." He would never agree that Bucky should be the one playing spy, but he also wouldn't try to tie the man to a chair, which he knew wouldn't work. If he didn't have so many problems with everything related to the Order, Steve would be out there doing the same thing. But he couldn't be objective and he knew he'd never be able to pull anything off. He'd never forgive himself if Bucky got hurt though.