I push things on you Suzaku. That's unfair of me. Completely unfair. I don't have the right to do that. And you don't deserve to be put in the position of always having to say no. I need to stop trying to force myself on you.
Very very rarely. In fact he can't remember the last time he'd refused Steve anything.
He hasn't really wanted to, it's not as if Steve asks for a lot. Company sometimes and someone to eat his food.
Had he made Steve feel like he was asking too much of him? That's...
Suzaku was never good at friends, he's never been friends long enough with someone for more subtle problems like this to occur. He's definitely never been married before...
"But you know you could, right? You know you can always tell me if something really bothers you? Or you have a better idea? Or if you just want something because you want it and you think I should be with you to share it. All of that's just fine! I'd love to do activities that you thought up, even if it's just sitting quietly in the same space!"
Just because someone didn't say no didn't mean the activity was enjoyed or welcome. Suzaku rarely seemed to have opinions and Steve just felt like the boy let himself get pushed around because he was too kind to say he didn't like something. That wasn't what Steve wanted, but he worried it was what happened.
"Really? You're not just saying that?" Because the kid had a habit of saying what Steve wanted to hear, even if it wasn't strictly the truth. It was the only thing about Suzaku that ever really frustrated him. He knew the kid wasn't good or confident with touching and being touched, and that he tended to be quiet more often than anything else. That was just the way Suzaku was. But the not speaking up thing . . .
"I expect you to say no to me at some point. And to come up with at least one activity on your own. And yeah, I realize I'm being hypocrite by telling you to do things after telling you not to let me boss you around." He was smiling when he said it, aware of just how ridiculous he sounded, "But I mean it Suzaku. Don't let me force you to do things, ok?"
He nodded, he really wasn't just saying it. He liked Steve, a lot. So he would try. To say no, to come up with an activity, to not be forced into anything.
Though truly he wasn't being. It was just that Steve's ideas were not exactly anything taxing or difficult for him.
And he'd try to. It would be hard for both of them honestly. Steve would always have the need to make suggestions and to try and to get Suzaku more involved, and the kid would always be more inclined to just go along and not argue or have many opinions. But they could both work on their flaws and that was what mattered.
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He shook his head.] I wouldn't want you to change. [Because then he would be doing the same.
Why was this all complicated? No one had told him marriage would be this complicated.
Then again it's not as if he'd ever spent any time around married people before. Maybe it was always this complicated.]
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Very very rarely. In fact he can't remember the last time he'd refused Steve anything.
He hasn't really wanted to, it's not as if Steve asks for a lot. Company sometimes and someone to eat his food.
Had he made Steve feel like he was asking too much of him? That's...
Suzaku was never good at friends, he's never been friends long enough with someone for more subtle problems like this to occur. He's definitely never been married before...
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Just because someone didn't say no didn't mean the activity was enjoyed or welcome. Suzaku rarely seemed to have opinions and Steve just felt like the boy let himself get pushed around because he was too kind to say he didn't like something. That wasn't what Steve wanted, but he worried it was what happened.
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Maybe he should, maybe he should be making a bigger effort to include Steve in his own life, such as it was.
"I'll do that." Make sure he asked him, try to give his opinions more, even if he really didn't mind going along with what Steve wanted.
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"I expect you to say no to me at some point. And to come up with at least one activity on your own. And yeah, I realize I'm being hypocrite by telling you to do things after telling you not to let me boss you around." He was smiling when he said it, aware of just how ridiculous he sounded, "But I mean it Suzaku. Don't let me force you to do things, ok?"
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Though truly he wasn't being. It was just that Steve's ideas were not exactly anything taxing or difficult for him.
"I will try my best."
He agreed.
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And he'd try to. It would be hard for both of them honestly. Steve would always have the need to make suggestions and to try and to get Suzaku more involved, and the kid would always be more inclined to just go along and not argue or have many opinions. But they could both work on their flaws and that was what mattered.
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Who would have thought marriage was so difficult.