It's not that he doesn't want to tell him, it's just that there is so much and nothing at all. No one thing separated a Suzaku whose smiles came easily to one whose didn't. More it was a build up of war and sorrow. His own sins and crimes chipping away at him until the hard armour he cloaked himself in became part of him, until the boy who believed in justice and wanted to save Japan had been pushed down so many times he no longer stood back up.
But none of that is a moment, none of that is something he can vocalise, none of it is one thing that Steve can fix. Suzaku is a man who should no longer exist, a man who should exist hidden behind a mask, serving the world he so betrayed. But instead he had been dragged to hell and....
Here he was. "I don't mind you touching me."
It's an easier subject, much easier to navigate. "You can touch me whenever you like."
He had been trying to show that, since they married, the couple of times they had spend time together since then, but it was probably best to speak it, to make it clear.
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Date: 2021-12-20 05:58 am (UTC)But none of that is a moment, none of that is something he can vocalise, none of it is one thing that Steve can fix. Suzaku is a man who should no longer exist, a man who should exist hidden behind a mask, serving the world he so betrayed. But instead he had been dragged to hell and....
Here he was. "I don't mind you touching me."
It's an easier subject, much easier to navigate. "You can touch me whenever you like."
He had been trying to show that, since they married, the couple of times they had spend time together since then, but it was probably best to speak it, to make it clear.