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compelledtoprotect) wrote2019-05-05 04:31 am
compelledtoprotect) wrote2019-05-05 04:31 am
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This is Steve. Leave a message.
I know but . . . I know. I know all of it Billy. But it doesn't stop how much I wanna protect everyone. It's not logical, you know that.
[There was so much hope in his eyes when he looked at the camera it was probably painful. Why would it mean so much? Steve just didn't know, but it did and would. He'd been essentially celibate since James left, but he missed it. Missed being close, holding someone, feeling loved.]
Can I Billy? Please?
[There was so much hope in his eyes when he looked at the camera it was probably painful. Why would it mean so much? Steve just didn't know, but it did and would. He'd been essentially celibate since James left, but he missed it. Missed being close, holding someone, feeling loved.]
Can I Billy? Please?
I know, Steve. I know. But I don't know what to do either... not beyond what I am doing.
[And it's not enough apparently. Or it's not right. Or-- whatever. He sighs, eyes drifting downward.]
You don't have to say please when I'm offering. I'll leave the door unlocked. Don't be soft about it... I'm not that breakable, and I want bruises tomorrow.
[And it's not enough apparently. Or it's not right. Or-- whatever. He sighs, eyes drifting downward.]
You don't have to say please when I'm offering. I'll leave the door unlocked. Don't be soft about it... I'm not that breakable, and I want bruises tomorrow.
Billy . . .
[Rough too? It wouldn't be the first time. The things they'd done on the island made the hotel seem tame. He could be rough. Steve rather enjoyed rough when he could get it, but it wasn't often someone just came out and asked for it.]
I can give you bruises baby, if you want 'em. We can do whatever you want Billy. Anything. You're sure it's ok? Really sure?
[Because he didn't want to make any problems for anyone. It just seemed like a good idea to ask again.]
[Rough too? It wouldn't be the first time. The things they'd done on the island made the hotel seem tame. He could be rough. Steve rather enjoyed rough when he could get it, but it wasn't often someone just came out and asked for it.]
I can give you bruises baby, if you want 'em. We can do whatever you want Billy. Anything. You're sure it's ok? Really sure?
[Because he didn't want to make any problems for anyone. It just seemed like a good idea to ask again.]
I'm sure. It'll be okay.
[He wanted this right now. He didn't want anything careful or easy.]
I'll be waiting, Steve.
[He wanted this right now. He didn't want anything careful or easy.]
I'll be waiting, Steve.
Not for long.
[Steve didn't keep Billy waiting. He made it to the man's suite in record time and slipped in the door, glancing around. He was trying very very hard not to listen too closely, although he wasn't quite sure why.]
Billy? You in here?
[Steve didn't keep Billy waiting. He made it to the man's suite in record time and slipped in the door, glancing around. He was trying very very hard not to listen too closely, although he wasn't quite sure why.]
Billy? You in here?
Bedroom!
[Billy can't really stop himself from pacing back and forth a bit. His mind is going a little too fast to settle down, and honestly-- he's ready for a distraction.
[Billy can't really stop himself from pacing back and forth a bit. His mind is going a little too fast to settle down, and honestly-- he's ready for a distraction.
[He followed the sound of Billy's voice and leaned on the doorframe, watching. Shit. Shit. He had to do something to help his Billy.
Steve stepped into the room and caught Billy's arm as he passed in pacing, his grip gentle.]
Billy. Talk to me baby. What do you need?
Steve stepped into the room and caught Billy's arm as he passed in pacing, his grip gentle.]
Billy. Talk to me baby. What do you need?
I think I already told you, didn't I?
[He tilts his head back to meet Steve's eyes.]
Don't be careful, Steve.
[He tilts his head back to meet Steve's eyes.]
Don't be careful, Steve.
[He tightened his hand slowly on the man's arm until he knew it would cross the line into pain, and leave a faint bruise. Steve's eyes never left Billy's face, his voice rough and deep when he spoke.]
I need to know when it gets to be too much. Swear you'll stop me Billy. Swear it and I'll hurt you.
I need to know when it gets to be too much. Swear you'll stop me Billy. Swear it and I'll hurt you.
[He lets out a noise at the grip, but it's not at all unpleasant. He tugs against the hold, testing it.]
Alright, if I say-- Avengers or something, you'll know I mean it really does hurt. Okay?
[That isn't something he'd yell out in bed after all.]
Alright, if I say-- Avengers or something, you'll know I mean it really does hurt. Okay?
[That isn't something he'd yell out in bed after all.]
Might forget and look at you funny, but sure. Stop works too. I'll at least pause.
[Steve didn't let Billy pull away. In fact, he tightened his fingers a little more. He understood the point of safewords, but he wasn't very experienced with them. Mostly he wasn't violent with people, and when someone was with him, he trusted that person to stop before he was dead. That was sort of how far he was willing to go. But words like "stop" and "no" would always make him pause and check in anyway.
He pulled Billy's arm towards him, making the man step closer.]
Do I leave marks Billy? Do I break anything? Make you bleed?
[Steve didn't let Billy pull away. In fact, he tightened his fingers a little more. He understood the point of safewords, but he wasn't very experienced with them. Mostly he wasn't violent with people, and when someone was with him, he trusted that person to stop before he was dead. That was sort of how far he was willing to go. But words like "stop" and "no" would always make him pause and check in anyway.
He pulled Billy's arm towards him, making the man step closer.]
Do I leave marks Billy? Do I break anything? Make you bleed?
You can leave marks and I'm not opposed to bleeding. We'll see about breaking anything.
[He'll just want to make sure his magic is working enough to heal it, that's all... but as much as he wants pain right now? He might not oppose it.
For now, he lets himself get pulled in and flashes a grin, excitement bleeding into his expression.]
I trust you.
[He'll just want to make sure his magic is working enough to heal it, that's all... but as much as he wants pain right now? He might not oppose it.
For now, he lets himself get pulled in and flashes a grin, excitement bleeding into his expression.]
I trust you.
Good.
[Steve moved fast, too fast for a normal man, and in a heartbeat he had Billy pinned to the nearest wall, and hand around the man's throat tight enough to making breathing just tiniest bit difficult. His other hand slid down Billy's chest, and lower as he leaned in, whispering in the man's ear.]
You know, I've had a lot of experience since the island. I think you'll be quite pleased.
[Steve moved fast, too fast for a normal man, and in a heartbeat he had Billy pinned to the nearest wall, and hand around the man's throat tight enough to making breathing just tiniest bit difficult. His other hand slid down Billy's chest, and lower as he leaned in, whispering in the man's ear.]
You know, I've had a lot of experience since the island. I think you'll be quite pleased.
[His breath catches in his throat as he hits the wall, his heart beat picking up. He isn't afraid though, excitement is clear in his eyes. He shifts a little bit, just to feel the pressure at his throat as Steve's hand moves down his body.]
Yeah? So have I...
Yeah? So have I...
Yeah? What do you like best Billy boy? What's your favorite naughty thing?
[When Billy leaned into his hands, Steve obliged him. He tightened the fingers on the man's throat just a touch, and his other hand worked under Billy's shirt, fingers finding bare skin. His nails scraped against the man's belly lightly, teasing.]
[When Billy leaned into his hands, Steve obliged him. He tightened the fingers on the man's throat just a touch, and his other hand worked under Billy's shirt, fingers finding bare skin. His nails scraped against the man's belly lightly, teasing.]
Depends on who I'm with...
[He swallows, trying not to squirm as fingernails rake over his skin. It's hard to focus on talking when he's getting so much of what he wants already.]
Right now? I want you to do whatever you want, however you want it. I want you to fuck me until I can't think straight.
[He swallows, trying not to squirm as fingernails rake over his skin. It's hard to focus on talking when he's getting so much of what he wants already.]
Right now? I want you to do whatever you want, however you want it. I want you to fuck me until I can't think straight.
[Steve leaned in, nuzzling the man's temple as he spoke, smirking against warm skin. Billy's body under his hands was so hot, so eager. He tightened his hand just a tiny bit more on the man's throat as his fingers dug into firm muscle. Just to tease.]
Do you remember the island Billy? Being together there? I know I do. Shall I fill you up now like I did then? Until you can't possible hold any more?
Do you remember the island Billy? Being together there? I know I do. Shall I fill you up now like I did then? Until you can't possible hold any more?
happy weird hell-world Satinalia sorry for trying to kill you
Well that's a little odd, but sure. I knew it wasn't you Garrett. No harm done. I heal real good.
[That's a very amused smile there on his face. As long as Garrett was ok, so was Steve. And hopefully Garrett found and liked his present.]
[That's a very amused smile there on his face. As long as Garrett was ok, so was Steve. And hopefully Garrett found and liked his present.]
[He lets out a soft groan as he brings up his own hands to try to touch Steve, smoothing them up over his body.]
Do it... might take you all night though. [He swallows against that hand tightening at his throat, making it even harder to breathe.]
Do it... might take you all night though. [He swallows against that hand tightening at his throat, making it even harder to breathe.]
You and me both!
[He picks up the video call, of course, with a sunny smile. Garrett is delivering presents, but the hallways of the hotel are all so similar that he's hoping Steve won't realize that Garrett is right outside his door.]
Spirit wasn't lying about the magic. I'm fine.
[Though not without a souvenir, right above his eyebrow.]
[He picks up the video call, of course, with a sunny smile. Garrett is delivering presents, but the hallways of the hotel are all so similar that he's hoping Steve won't realize that Garrett is right outside his door.]
Spirit wasn't lying about the magic. I'm fine.
[Though not without a souvenir, right above his eyebrow.]
[Even if he didn't recognize the hallway, Steve could hear the man. The echo of his voice, and as the man came closer, his heartbeat. He got up and moved to the door, opening it with an amused smirk as he gazed down the hall, waving his device at Garrett.]
Why are we talking on this if you're right down the hall?
[Steve's eyes moved over the man, brows lifting at the sack of . . . presents? What the . . . Was Garrett playing Santa?]
Garrett, what are you doing?
Why are we talking on this if you're right down the hall?
[Steve's eyes moved over the man, brows lifting at the sack of . . . presents? What the . . . Was Garrett playing Santa?]
Garrett, what are you doing?
You could always twist us a little. You can do that right? Make us rut again?
[It was an interesting idea that came to him along with the other memories. When they'd been forced to act like animals. It would be useful if Billy could induce that again. Being so connected to his baser self would make violence all the easier. Plus it would be fun. Steve remembered enjoying most of that time on the island, even if he'd been out of control more than once.
He dragged his mouth along the man's cheek toward his mouth, leaving a damp trail.]
Wanna try it?
[It was an interesting idea that came to him along with the other memories. When they'd been forced to act like animals. It would be useful if Billy could induce that again. Being so connected to his baser self would make violence all the easier. Plus it would be fun. Steve remembered enjoying most of that time on the island, even if he'd been out of control more than once.
He dragged his mouth along the man's cheek toward his mouth, leaving a damp trail.]
Wanna try it?
If you trust my magic, I can.
[And it sounds like Steve does, for better or worse. He gives a grin before he turns to try to catch Steve in a proper kiss. He brings up a hand to rest it at the side of Steve's face, fingertips brushing over his skin fondly.
There's the glow to his eyes soon enough, the tingle of magic at his fingertips as he mutters a spell. Baseinstinctsbaseinstincts -- it should have enough power behind it to put them both in that state again for the night at least.]
[And it sounds like Steve does, for better or worse. He gives a grin before he turns to try to catch Steve in a proper kiss. He brings up a hand to rest it at the side of Steve's face, fingertips brushing over his skin fondly.
There's the glow to his eyes soon enough, the tingle of magic at his fingertips as he mutters a spell. Baseinstinctsbaseinstincts -- it should have enough power behind it to put them both in that state again for the night at least.]
I trust you with my life period. And as long as you think it'd be fun too, I'm more than happy to try.
[Steve kissed the man, hard and hungry. If Billy needed it rough, he'd deliver. And knowing the man could handle him even when he was all but feral took that usual worry away. They'd done it before, and both had walked away. Eventually. What Steve was proposing was going to leave them both beyond spent and exhausted.
He shivered as Billy mumbled those words and he felt the magic touch him. Steve groaned softly as the heat started to kindle in his belly, that familiar need reborn. His hands tightened on Billy as he buried his nose in the man's neck, pulling in Billy's scent.]
Billy . . .
[Steve kissed the man, hard and hungry. If Billy needed it rough, he'd deliver. And knowing the man could handle him even when he was all but feral took that usual worry away. They'd done it before, and both had walked away. Eventually. What Steve was proposing was going to leave them both beyond spent and exhausted.
He shivered as Billy mumbled those words and he felt the magic touch him. Steve groaned softly as the heat started to kindle in his belly, that familiar need reborn. His hands tightened on Billy as he buried his nose in the man's neck, pulling in Billy's scent.]
Billy . . .
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